“. . . my worst childhood fears were suddenly come to life, there silhouetted in the door of my dark bedroom. . . “
Darkophobia part 2
The fear of the dark is one of the most common fears there is, it’s just a primal instinct that we fear what our imaginations project, or our spirits sense is lurking unseen in its cover. As I told you last week, I was once very afraid of the dark. But, at some point, I got over that fear. Today the only fear I have in the dark is of stubbing my toe on the bed post.
Anyway, after I came to have a real relationship with the Lord I understood that I not only do not have to fear the dark, but, the dark now fears me. I first had this tested years ago. I was again living in a big old house, this time alone, just me and my dog. It was shortly after an encounter with the Holy Spirit in which he set me free from my addictions and set my heart of fire for him. I was truly, finally, living in the light.
One evening I was visiting with friends after church on a Wednesday night and the talk turned to the gift of discerning spirits. ‘What is that?’ My freind said it was the ability to sense the presence of an evil spirit and know what kind it is. ‘Huh. That sounds cool, I’m gonna pray for that.’—and I did, that night, before I went to sleep in my big old rental house on Grand avenue in Billings.
to another the working of miracles, to another prophecy, to another the discernment of spirits, to another various kinds of tongues, to another the interpretation of tongues. 1 Cor 12:10
It made for a very interesting night to be sure. Be careful what you pray for. That night I had some crazy dreams about wrestling with two spirits, a spirit of alcoholism and a spirit of deception, we were wrestling over a friend of mine who had recently fallen off the wagon and they were taunting me—“We might not have you anymore but we have your friend.”
Suddenly I woke up and looked towards my bedroom door, my worst childhood fears were suddenly come to life, there silhouetted in the door of my dark bedroom against the lights from the street shining through my living room windows, was a hooded figure leaning into my room just watching me —seriously. And I knew it was not flesh and blood, it was a demon spirit.
Suddenly I remembered a story I had heard about Martin Luther, who, when confronted by the devil said, “What do you want you old snake?” And threw an ink well at him. And he left. (Something like that)
So here’s what I did, I said, ‘you can’t hurt me’, and I turned over in bed, turning my back to him, and went to sleep. A peaceful, fearless sleep as a matter of fact. I wasn’t going to give him even the respect of fearing him, let alone worrying about him. It was totally a God thing because I should have been scared witless.
And the next morning I just thought, huh, that was weird, and then I remembered seeing something in a large closet upstairs that a former tenant had used for a bedroom, a pentagram had been drawn on the wall with a Sharpie. That evening after work I painted over it. I discerned that this was an invitation to the enemy, but even so, he couldn’t touch me— I belong to Jesus and I am in the light.
I have never feared the enemy to this day and other than an occasional annoying heckler in a sermon or a religious Spirit come to try and mess things up in our church, he had never been able to touch me or frighten me.
Seriously, I know I enjoy a level of protection from the Lord. I have been in a lot of scary places, heard a lot of crazy stories, both as part of ministry and just as a part of life, and I have never been accosted in any meaningful way by the enemy. It’s kind of hard to explain, I’ll just have to trust that as Christians who have been around for a while that you know what I mean.
I never understood why people get all uptight about the enemy messing with them, fearing evil spirits, worrying about their influence or presence in their lives, their homes, their health—tell them to take a hike! Don’t make their day by fearing them, they deserve no respect whatsoever.
You are a child of the living God, a child of the light, the light that shines in the darkness, the light that the darkness cannot overcome, does not understand and cannot stand against—there is absolutely no reason to fear him, to put up with him, no reason why you cannot tell him to take a hike—‘you do not scare me, in fact, you do not even bother me, I’m going to sleep, you just let yourself out and by the way; don’t come back— in the name of Jesus; just be gone! And stay away from my kids as well.’
. . . how can one enter a strong man’s house and plunder his goods, unless he first binds the strongman? Mat 12:29
The only way the enemy can touch you is if you fear him, the only way he can bind you is if you let him. Sometimes it’s simply because you don’t see him. That’s why you need to stay in the light, that is part of what the light is for, it not only illuminates your heart, it allows you to see into the darkness around you. Not so you can fear it, but so you can tell it to go away.
As soon as you shine the light into the dark, it ceases to be dark. That’s just a basic law of the universe, physical and spiritual. You want discernment of spirits? That’s all that is, seeing into the darkness and realizing the monsters are nothing to fear.
Why would a monster hide in the first place unless they were afraid of you.
Your word is a lamp to my feet And a light to my path. Ps 119:105
Living in the light is knowledge and understanding, living in the dark is not understanding, that is why the dark can never understand the light, and you can never overcome something you cannot understand. We understand that we are loved by the God of the universe and nothing can snatch us away from him. That’s all we need to know.
That might not have all sounded very Christmassy, but when you look at the lights on your Christmas tree, or the lights on the neighbor’s house, remember why we celebrate—the true light that gives light to all mankind has come.
The true light that gives light to everyone was coming into the world. John 1:9
Never—fear the dark, let the dark fear you.